What's Up Blogger!

Whelp! I am the worst blogger in the world. It's been almost A MONTH since I posted. Go figure, right? I actually wrote a blog post the other day, went to post it and it froze and I lost everything. Needless to say, I didn't feel like rewriting it so I just canned the idea of writing a post. I think this is more of a "What's been going on in my life" type of post more than anything else. Life has been nutso for the last month, so to fill you guys in, here's what's happened...

*I've been going to church every Sunday and LOVING it! I feel just amazing inside since going. God is beautiful!
*I got a new job and LOVVVVVVVVVVEEEEE it!!! Seriously, me loving a job??? When does that happen. I literally have been waking up BEFORE my alarm clock because I can't wait to go every day. That's just sick...
*I've been reading again. I just picked up some more books at Goodwill the other night, too, which I'm pretty stoked about!
*I just got new windshield wipers for my car. Yeah, this makes me happy, how sad. But it's the little things, right?
*My brother and his family (and my newborn nephew) came down last weekend from Minnesota. That baby is SO DARN CUTE! I'll post pics of him very soon!
*My nail polish collection has grown (severely) since the last time I posted. I had to buy a big three drawer container tonight to fit it all in one place instead of 3...
*I dyed my hair. It didn't turn out too well. My goal was a dark blonde (going back to a blonde for summer, woot) and it dyed my roots blonde and kept everything else dark brown. Gross. It's finally lightening up!
*My niece recently celebrated her 1st Birthday and her big brother Miles celebrated his 9th (God I'm getting old) Birthday last weekend. I love those kids so darn much! Miles got an XBOX for his Birthday. Yeah, I was (and still am) jealous...
*I just got the new Florence + the Machine cd. It's epic. Listen to it!!
*Today I have decided to make a change to lose some weight. I'll get into more of it soon, but I think it's for the best. More on that later!


And that's all I can think of for now. I just have been so incredibly blessed lately and have been taking my life day by day. I used to be a planner and tried to predict the future, but I know now that you cannot live life that way. God has changed me and I never understood what that meant when I heard others say that. But now I know. It's an amazing thing and I couldn't be happier. I really need to elaborate on what I mean! :p I'm going to close with a song that I've been playing non-stop lately (and it's really been hitting a cord with me, too. It's so good though, despite the bad memories it brings to mind, but I can deal). Have a good one everyone <3

Where Do I Begin?

Hey guys. Sorry for the huge absence as of late. I'm just trying to get certain things on track right now. For instance, I got a new job!! I know a few weeks back I said I got a new job, but this is a new one! I will be working at a hospital in the medical records department, which is what I used to do before I resigned at my old company. I am incredibly excited. Life has been so busy since my interview a week ago. I get so stressed out when I go for an interview and I always seem to mess them up. I think it's nerves. So I had my interview and was on pins and needles. This was something I needed so bad right now and it came at the perfect time, but I was so worried I was going to mess it up and miss a wonderful opportunity. But I got lucky and got hired the same day as my interview (when does that ever happen anymore, I'm so grateful!!).

I was making good money at my prior job but decided to quit because I couldn't move up anymore and essentially wasn't happy with the company. I liked what I did but the company was so ass backwards and I didn't want to be associated with a place that only cared about money and not their patients. But anyways, I had a few months off and worked at my old job at the grocery store. I finally just got comfortable, even with having literally no money to spare, and I got this call for a job I applied to back in December. I was (and still am) so stoked that something so great was in store for me! I'm really excited, but I can't help but to feel sad about changing my life around. I'm not a fan of change. I seem to always take it hard, no matter if it's good or bad. I wish I wasn't like this!

Since my interview, I had to take a drug test (totally freaked me out, never took one before. I knew I had nothing to worry about, but man, it so makes you feel like a criminal), and I had to take a TB test. I hate hate hate needles. I would panic when I was a kid when I had to go get shots. This time it actually wasn't that bad (thanks to my cats for scratching me pretty bad with their nails I got used to pain haha). I passed that and all seems like smooth sailing from here on out. I can't wait to get back to my old job at a new company where their views are very much the same as mine. I can't wait to work with the people I used to work with (I used to work there and got transferred not long after I was there to a new location) and get back into a good routine. It'll be really nice to have money again and to be able to afford the things life throws at you.

But here's my problem. I'm not good with money. At all. Both my parent's aren't good with it and I guess I followed suit. The first time I had this job, I said I was going to do all this stuff with the money (buy a car, which I did, pay off my loans - still doing that, travel, save save save and so on) and I really can't tell you where it all went. I managed it so poorly and never saved a dime. Well, I take that back, I did save some money to visit my boyfriend (at the time) who lived in CO, but we broke up and I used it for a new camera instead. I wish I would have kept saving it, but what can you do. So since quitting that job, I went to having a good chunk of money a month to maybe a couple hundred, if that. Yeah, totally not easy when you have rent and a car payment and student loans. I think God is finally giving me an opportunity to reinstate my good intentions and put them into reality. Which I am intending to do FOR REAL this time. Needs come first, wants come later. This is going to be a huge step for me and something I know I HAVE to do. No questions asked. In church, we've been learning how to manage our finances, and this is shedding a whole new perspective for me. I don't think this job could have came at a better time. But I tell you, making no money really helps you not to spend a dime. I really liked that actually. I didn't have to think about anything and I knew where my money was going, without having the temptation to spend it. I'm just scared that I will not be able to handle myself this time around. But I am determined and damn willing to do what I need to do to save towards my future. I am responsible, but I need to be MORE responsible. At this point, it's just me, myself and I, and I have to support myself and that's what I intend to do!

Wow, this post hit a lot of topics. What I really came here to say is that I'm hoping my mini hiatus will be done rather soon, it's just that life is quite busy and I have to make sure I am keeping all my beans in one basket. I just hope you guys understand! I also need to buy a ton of supplies for my shop and will be doing that soon after I get paid. I'm thinking about changing some things up with my shop because I'm not happy with some of the formulas and packaging. But that's a different story for a different day! Well I suppose it's off to bed for me, tomorrow is my last day (sort of) at my grocery job, so sleep awaits! If you read through this whole thing, you are a serious trooper and I will love you forever, haha :o) Sorry if this didn't make much sense, I'm tired out of my mind...

xo.